Vertical Cascade

The past few weeks had been very hectic for me. Not long after coming back from Melaka, i had to rush for 2 assignments. At the same time, I had to practice and also help my friend to compose the chords for his song composing competition, which its Grand Final was held yesterday. Sure I had fun, but it was also tiring as God knows what. A few days ago, I turned 20. My friends gave me a surprise celebration. I was happy, but something was missing. There was a vague vast continuum inside of me. At the same time I want to thank them for giving me such a wonderful time and for having me as their friend, I just wanted to be by myself, just like what I have always been doing for the past few years on my day.

It has been quite some time since I did some soul searching. Ever since I came here, everything felt different. There were some things that I knew would happened, I should have avoided it, but I didnt. At times, I m even afraid to face my ownself. Too many things had happened in such a short period of time. Certain events keep haunting me again and again. I just can't seem to shake them off me. I can't let go of it. I can't move on. Even as I m writing this post here, such random unanticipated thoughts just swayed into my mind, messing them up, making the fibrous threads of my every muscles to feel the tension.

I guess its time to go into a vertical cascade, and rewind it all back to square one.