Reminiscence II

It was raining today, memories began to flood my mind again.

The walk we walked for hours,the chat we chatted for hours.

For the first time I held your hands in mine;

All the fears,the worries I once had;

The doubts of expressing my feelings to you;

The fear of losing you;

Had just vanished into thin air.

The feelings I had been concealing since you told me you wanted to go else where,

Could finally be shown and expressed;

This very second, could have been a moment of happiness for us;

A time where those feelings relived;

Every time you're in sight;

Whenever I felt your presence,

My heart did not skip a beat,

But countless beats.

At the blink on an eye, how fast time has passed us.

Words, can be meaningful;

Also as meaningless it could be;

Written here, as a memory;

A memory I can only stare at,

But not experience,

You brighten my life;

A moment, time could never erase;

Unforgettable as what they call,

The joy and happiness of being with someone special,

Translates into you

Surely but slowly;

A gap is widening,

The paths are slowly diverging;

Drifting apart;

Splitting into two routes;

Leading on and on,

To a place never explored,

An unknown continuum;

Unfamiliar faces, smirking at me,

Holding on,

Standing still at head of diverging routes;

Not budging even an inch.

As the four seasons passed on.

There were times where it pains me, but I can't let you know.

The times where coldness took over, yet I couldn't just run into your arms, not anymore.

And there were times where I missed you, but I can't tell you how much you I m missing.

How your fingers used fit perfectly in between mine.

The warmth of the hug you gave me, was replaced with lifeless, chilly air.

How I wished we had the chance to gaze at the stars together.

Lying side by side.

My phone now dead,

How the sound of my message tone just slowly disappear.

As ironic as it seems, I hope at times it would be better if I did not exist at all.

Such deep feelings, It isn't easy to just let it go..

I am dying inside, necrosis me.

Sometimes I can't help but wonder, if you ever felt the same way I did.

How you just cast such emotions into void,

Without even turning around and looking back.

As I stood here, reminiscing,

Only juxtaposition of you,

Keeping my fragile heart alive;

Fool, is what I am.