Life In Stills & Scribbles

I've done it. for the countless time.

2011-11-01T23:46:00.003+08:00

I have done it again.
Yes, for the number of times i lost count of it, perhaps even as many times as the number of stars that appear on a starry night.

The countless times i breath, and stop thinking straight.
I have fallen too deep inside, I need to climb out.

This tainted being of my actual self seemly being taken over by another entity.

What have i become?
Why am I being such a devouring demon?
Am I being forsaken?
Or have I forsaken myself?
I m standing on the tip of the knife,

Edge of the cliff,
A step away from what seems to be the end of it.
No one can save me,
Only I can save myself.

And if I ever fail,
Just know that I failed,
But the time that I have given to you, will always be a success no one else have or can ever give, to me.

Yes, I am

2011-10-25T20:37:00.002+08:00

If you're asking me, my answer would be yes, I am. I m disappointed, about you changing things and didn't let me know. It somehow shows that you are hiding something from me. I m disappointed with myself, for not being able to control myself at the given time and place. I m disappointed in them, for I can see what they are trying to do. It is written all over their actions and words.
It's alright, this disappointment only proves one thing, people always expect everyone else to be perfect, when they themselves are not. And I m no exception.
When the time comes for it to happen, it will happen.
I m already at my wits end,

Cheap words.

2011-10-19T18:33:00.003+08:00

Finally I know what i am,
I can see where I stand among others.

My presence is of zero importance.

Its doesnt even matter anymore.

And it is hurtful to see those changes.
If you don't mean what you say, don't say it and save someone from your empty promises.

Insincerity

2011-09-25T11:53:00.002+08:00

Words used to be something I used to trust and believe,

But ever since that day, words are nothing but letters coined together to give a certain meaning,

Words which may only be meaningful to yourself but not others,

Words which are used only to help you get out of trouble or unpleasant situations,

Words which i can never trust nor believe anymore.

People no longer mean what they say, nor do what they say.
It has become something used to hide certain actions.

The words, which has already lost its ingenuity,

Nothing more than what they are, letters coined together.

People no longer mean what they say, nor do what they say.
It has become something used to hide certain actions.

You reap what you sow.

2011-08-13T02:32:00.002+08:00

Past few days has been a roller coster ride.

And right now I m having a hard time trying to sleep, and yet I will be having a test in 6 hours later.

Just feel like writing something here.

Hope I can get up and not forget a single thing later.

The coming week will be madness.

Until then, i'll stay dormant.

The 100th post: Jumbled up in random assortments.

2011-07-18T01:11:00.002+08:00

It has been a long long while since i last lay a finger on my keyboard to type anything to be posted here.

Yes, as the title suggested, this is the 100th post of this blog *(like finally) and I m kind of jumbled up in random assortments.

Assortments that even a super computer can never manage to solve it.

Many things had happened, the good, the bad, the ugly, the beautiful, the ups,the downs, the in betweens, question marks, concealment, avoidance. Basically there is just too much to be listed.

And I finally saw the truth hiding behind, even though it was said indirectly.

I hope i can sort myself back into place before my internship comes. Or I should say that i need to.

On a lighter note, there are things that happened to keep me sane. I m thankful for those moments,

Once again, i think i m struck with insomnia.

It is coming at a wrong time, when i dont need it.

Sigh, I guess I have to toss myself into the washing machine to get a wake up call.

Until then.

Delusion

2011-05-04T10:55:00.002+08:00

Funny isnt it, how things have come and go these past years.

Sometimes, it just makes me sit down and starts to wonder again, Looking back into the past, past mistakes, past achievement, past events, past occurrences, and so many more that had happened before today.

As I m writing this post, something really vague came into my mind.

What is going to happen? I have this weird feeling something big is coming up, but i just cant find any hints or clues about it. Not even the slightest bit. Is it because of the Final exams that are nearing ? I doubt so. But something else is somewhat constantly replaying in my neuromuscular center. Its as if someone took the remote control and hit the play and rewind button every minute.

Has my life come to a stall? Where things are only going in a circular motion? As optimistic as I wanted to be, I just can't at times. I just have to keep going until I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Hopefully, there will be some sort of drink in the pharmacy shelves which can just make people erase what they want, and keep what they want.

I guess its about time I do some soul searching and self-reflection again before I move on.

As much as it seems like I m ranting here, its the only place where my rants will have a space to call its own. Nothing, but just stills, scribbles, words, letters, and numbers.

On a brighter note, I've manage to sell most of my camera gears after more than 1 month of advertising. All that is left is just my lens, which was sent for servicing in KL yesterday.

Until I've manage to sort things out or any incident, I guess this blog post will be here for quite some time.

Hypocrites

2011-05-03T01:09:00.004+08:00

Those who do not walk the talk.

As much as I hate them, I just cant stand with them being in my sight.

Sadly, I just cant run away and hide myself in the corner of this earth.

I can only keep on putting up with it.

Until a day when I can no longer put up with it,

That will be when hell breaks loose.

That will be when you will realize!

Until then, sorry is useless.

The only person to blame, is to look in the mirror.

Take a GOOD LOOK and you will know the answer.

p/s: This is for the weighing scale!

It hurts

2011-04-24T03:20:00.002+08:00

For the first time, I felt really hurt.
It feels like the whole world just came crashing down on me,
And somehow, it seems I have just lost all my strength just for that instance,
That sentence really hurt me.
I m weak,
I m foolish,
More importantly,
I m an ass.
I hate myself,
I hate being me,
And I hate being I.

Concurrence

2011-04-14T01:16:00.001+08:00

Most of the time, I just blame myself for my actions, decisions and words.

Reminiscence II

2010-12-20T16:47:00.006+08:00

It was raining today, memories began to flood my mind again.

The walk we walked for hours,the chat we chatted for hours.

For the first time I held your hands in mine;

All the fears,the worries I once had;

The doubts of expressing my feelings to you;

The fear of losing you;

Had just vanished into thin air.

The feelings I had been concealing since you told me you wanted to go else where,

Could finally be shown and expressed;

This very second, could have been a moment of happiness for us;

A time where those feelings relived;

Every time you're in sight;

Whenever I felt your presence,

My heart did not skip a beat,

But countless beats.

At the blink on an eye, how fast time has passed us.

Words, can be meaningful;

Also as meaningless it could be;

Written here, as a memory;

A memory I can only stare at,

But not experience,

You brighten my life;

A moment, time could never erase;

Unforgettable as what they call,

The joy and happiness of being with someone special,

Translates into you

Surely but slowly;

A gap is widening,

The paths are slowly diverging;

Drifting apart;

Splitting into two routes;

Leading on and on,

To a place never explored,

An unknown continuum;

Unfamiliar faces, smirking at me,

Holding on,

Standing still at head of diverging routes;

Not budging even an inch.

As the four seasons passed on.

There were times where it pains me, but I can't let you know.

The times where coldness took over, yet I couldn't just run into your arms, not anymore.

And there were times where I missed you, but I can't tell you how much you I m missing.

How your fingers used fit perfectly in between mine.

The warmth of the hug you gave me, was replaced with lifeless, chilly air.

How I wished we had the chance to gaze at the stars together.

Lying side by side.

My phone now dead,

How the sound of my message tone just slowly disappear.

As ironic as it seems, I hope at times it would be better if I did not exist at all.

Such deep feelings, It isn't easy to just let it go..

I am dying inside, necrosis me.

Sometimes I can't help but wonder, if you ever felt the same way I did.

How you just cast such emotions into void,

Without even turning around and looking back.

As I stood here, reminiscing,

Only juxtaposition of you,

Keeping my fragile heart alive;

Fool, is what I am.

Mindplay

2010-12-19T16:00:00.002+08:00

The bitterness inside is killing me,
Eating me up like a disease,
Devouring every last bit of me,
My heart, pain and agony weeps in the distant beams,
The mind, playing with the juxtaposition it made of you.
The eyes, that sees you in everything,
If a savior could banish these necrosis,
I'd really hope it is you,
The you who'd wouldn't just let me fall,
Fall endlessly and helplessly into the pit,
The you who I used to know,
Full of warmth,
Sending heatwaves through the chilly fragile mind of mine.
Taking the pain away with just one touch,
Until that day comes, only the damned ways of admonishment and pessimist clouds me.
Until the day, I once again speak the confessions of my heart,
To you.

Genocidal

2010-12-19T03:34:00.004+08:00

To care for, wanted
Accompaniment, seek.
But right now, I m nothing to you,
Transparent, without any hint of existence,
Annoyance,filled your words,
Avoidance, carried your feet,
Two weeks, was all I was worth.

Wishes in the shower of Meteors and Stars

2010-12-15T21:27:00.006+08:00

Dear blog,

It has been a while since I wrote anything as long as what I m about to write now here.

Early this morning, there was a meteor shower. The sky was beautiful. It was so clear. I went out with a few friends to watch the shower. It was the first time I had actually seen such a phenomena. At once when I knew of the event, my mind stated to think about you. I sent you a text, asking you out to experience this phenomena together. I waited for your reply, but it didnt came. "She must be sleeping" I thought to myself. Then I saw for the first time, a meteor that dropped from the sky. At that instant, I made a wish. A wish for you. Soon after, another meteor fell from the sky. This time i made a wish for my other friends. A few other meteors were falling then. One of the was the biggest I saw out of the 70+ that I witnessed that night. On that very same meteor, I made another wish for you. I'd really hope that those wishes I made for you would come true. The night was really worth while. It was magnificent, but would have been perfect with you around.

Today, I took a walk to the lake from my place. It was quite troublesome with my left knee giving me problems. Slowly, I walked to the end of the lake. I sat there for a moment, taking a deep breath and memories of you just flooded my mind. Tears flow out of my eyes. I was sad, I was feeling down, I was lost. but little did I know, it was all because I was really missing you. I can't deny the fact that you were always on my mind, and you took apart of me with you, you were always the one who made my day. Just a smile from you would make a town light up. But now I m all alone. I went back to the spot where we held each other hands for the first time, the smile you wore on your face.

As I was alone, still thinking about you, an elderly couple walked by, hand in hand. "What a lovely and sweet old couple" I said to myself. They were roughly about in their late 50s'. They went on to stop at the platform in front of me. They then gaze at the lake and the skies, still holding each other hands. I was listening to Yiruma's "Kiss The Rain". What perfect timing I thought to myself. I've always wondered to myself, if I ever had the chance to do so with you anymore. Their lips were moving; they were talking about something. I wondered if they were talking about their past. How they met each other, how they came to the same lake before this, and how much they have grown older; perhaps. I then began to realize, as much as the elderly couple would like to spend their time together, age has caught up to them. It is a fact they could never change. But still, they are reliving their past, as if it happened just yesterday. I slowly began to learn that there are somethings in life that we have to learn to accept.

Life isnt always fair isnt it. Fairness is only something so vague, there is no definite meaning for it. It all leads to how we look at things. I doubt you would even be reading this. But if you do, just so you know, you're still in my heart and I m still waiting for you.

Never Enough

2010-12-08T10:45:00.002+08:00

Threading on a thin line,
I now walk the earth,
Constantly searching,
Looking; exploring,
Winds blew across,
Waves swept over,
Tides changed,
Volcanoes erupted.

As distant as it seems,
Each elements is taking over,
Loving you for who you are,
Perhaps I took things for granted,
Even though it has been awhile,
It is still taking its toll on me,
Sorry I wasn't good enough,
Sorry for being at the wrong place at the wrong time.

My hopes; crushed
Buried under eternity,
In the abyssal of your heart,
The shallow depths of mine,
How could I ever be enough for you,
Is something I guess could never be changed.

Vertical Cascade

2010-11-20T17:00:00.002+08:00

The past few weeks had been very hectic for me. Not long after coming back from Melaka, i had to rush for 2 assignments. At the same time, I had to practice and also help my friend to compose the chords for his song composing competition, which its Grand Final was held yesterday. Sure I had fun, but it was also tiring as God knows what. A few days ago, I turned 20. My friends gave me a surprise celebration. I was happy, but something was missing. There was a vague vast continuum inside of me. At the same time I want to thank them for giving me such a wonderful time and for having me as their friend, I just wanted to be by myself, just like what I have always been doing for the past few years on my day.

It has been quite some time since I did some soul searching. Ever since I came here, everything felt different. There were some things that I knew would happened, I should have avoided it, but I didnt. At times, I m even afraid to face my ownself. Too many things had happened in such a short period of time. Certain events keep haunting me again and again. I just can't seem to shake them off me. I can't let go of it. I can't move on. Even as I m writing this post here, such random unanticipated thoughts just swayed into my mind, messing them up, making the fibrous threads of my every muscles to feel the tension.

I guess its time to go into a vertical cascade, and rewind it all back to square one.

The Best Day

2010-10-24T19:30:00.002+08:00

Some time ago, I had the best day of my life.
We walked for hours, chatted for hours.
For the first time I held your hands in mine;
All the fear and worries I once had;
The doubts of letting my feelings known;
Had just vanished from my sight.
The feelings I had been hiding for some time,
Could finally be shown;

Today, could have been a moment of hapiness;
A time where those feelings relived;
Every time you're in sight;
My heart skips not just one,
But countless beats.
In just the blink on an eye, how fast time has passed us.

Words, can be meaningful;
Also as meaningless it could be;
Written here, as a memory;
You touched my life;
A moment, time could never erase;
Unforgettable as what they call,

Surely but slowly;
A gap is widening,
The paths are slowly diverging;
Splitting into two routes;
Leading on and on,
To a place never explored,
Holding on,
Standing still at head of diverging routes;
Not budging even an inch.
As the four seasons passed on.

There were times where it pains me, but I can't let you know.
And there were times where I missed you, but I can't tell you those words.
As ironic as it seems, I hope at times it would be better if I did not exist at all.
Such deep feelings, It isn't easy to just let it go..

Today, I can only try to recall the moments I had on this very date with her.
I guess I m just a love fool

After all, it seems like you'll still be leaving me

2010-10-14T00:07:00.016+08:00

Today, while I was chatting with her, she suddenly told me that her mum finally approve of her to pursue a degree in music.

The moment I saw those words, I had mixed feelings.

Feelings so mixed up I can't figure out what I am feeling at that very moment.

There was Joy,

There was Happiness

There was Sadness

There was Worry

There was Fear

There was Anxiety

and so many other emotions I can never express nor make up what it was. I know what was next.

I was happy that she can finally pursue her dream, her goal, her ambition that she has been talking about all this while. I was sad because she will be leaving my side. I feel afraid because what's after that, I don't know. When will I ever get to see her again? When can I meet her again? Can we still maintain the relationship we have now? Will it be better or get worst? Will I be forgotten after you realizes your dream? There were so many things we were suppose to do when we were once together, and I thought that I could at least still do them with you even after we broke up, but I realize I cant.

There is just too many questions popping up at once. But I must not be selfish. After all, things are already over between us. We are now just back to the state we were before. There is no more "we or us". What is left is only "me, myself and I" and "she, herself and her"

What is going to happen to me now? I don't even know myself. I can only put up a strong front. but deep inside, everything else is crumbling. So many things had happened in such a short period. The people around me told me to give myself some time, and also give her some time. But what if things are still the same after 5 or maybe 50 years? Just how much time do I have to give myself. I don't want to know what is next. I just don't. I rather not.

I will always be supporting you in everything that you do. but in the end, I still have to watch you leave. After all, it seems like you'll still be leaving me all alone once again.

I hope that you will be successful in pursuing your long time dream. Godspeed and God bless.

The Aftermath

2010-10-04T01:56:00.004+08:00

Finally, my finals are over, and that means that is the end of Year 1 Semester 1 for me. That sure is fast. Time really flies. So right now, I m having my sem break. Wouldn't want to think how I did for my finals. I m pretty sure that my physical chemistry would be quite a disappointment. Also, I m still trying hard to recover myself from so many things that had happened over the past 4 months.

Bummer. Sometimes, it is really better to left somethings left unsaid or unknown. Also, I've managed to got my DSLR back. This time it is a Nikon D300. Also, that means that I can get back into photography mode again! haha. Well I hope photography can help me take my mind off certain things.

On the brighter side, one of my friend, we call her Cat or Ar Miao, managed to get through an audition and got selected to represent Perak for a singing competition in Melaka! Congratulations to her!

Another surprise is.

Me! She asked me to be her guitarist for the performance! How awesome is that! haha! I really hope I wont let her down during the performance. I have to practice more. Wah, i m starting to feel scared a little now.

Nothing much to blog about nowadays. Having sem break now, still trying to plan where can I go during the break. So far the possible plans are Langkawi on the 15,16 and 17 of October. And perhaps to KL this week.

Until then, I will update once again with some nice pictures, hopefully.

Good night people, and enjoy your holidays to all my fellow friends and coursemates!

Fragments turns into dust

2010-09-23T13:47:00.002+08:00

The heart was broken once,
As I picked up the broken pieces,
Mending them as you kept your distance.
Hoping that time would heal it

I raised from my fall,
And wear a strong front whenever you are around,
Although deep inside the heart was still fragile,
Each thread slowly woven to keep the pieces together

Carefully, I picked myself up,
Pushing forward while holding on to you,
Hoping that perhaps fate or destiny will have a better call for me,
But your feelings still linger around me.

This time, the broken heart was shattered,
Into tiny fragments, fragments that is almost impossible to be woven back
Fragments that will eventually turn into dust,
And carried away by the wind.

Drops of Life

2010-08-30T19:12:00.004+08:00

A friend once told me,People are like straight lines,which are parallel to each other.They may overlap each other in a cross and become a single thick line.Or they may just cross each other and become parallel again. Whether they will cross again, no one knows.

The first and last time,

I've ever felt this way,

As the rain hits my face,

I let my feelings fly,

As I slowly felt them leave,

The same way the clouds hover by,

With each drop, a new drop washes away with it,

Just like how it washes away particles that it meets,

As I stood there,

I cherish every moment,

For the first time,

Every drops that hits my skin,

Washes away feelings I can't conceal,

I feel relieved and calm

Each feelings that reminds me of the past,

In the chilly wind that gives me the warmth and comfort,

I tried looking all over,

The path that I once walked,

Was never the same again,

The thoughts that were once there,

Has diminished through time,

The promises made,

Suddenly don't mean anything anymore.

All that is left now is, the feelings concealed in a single drop.

And what is left, in my treasure box

Thank you

Sometimes, I hate the rain because I can't go where I want with ease. But today, I love the rain, because tears can fall without anyone else knowing it.

I will keep it in my treasure box

2010-08-27T23:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, there was a full moon in the sky. And once again, I took a good view at it with 2 of my friends by the lakeside. The view was amazingly beautiful. At the same time, the three of us was at the place. The place where we first held each others hand. At the same moment, I recalled the way we held our hands together and how soft your hand was,how perfectly your fingers fit in between mine, and also the funny and silly things we had done the very same day. But on that night, you weren't there to hold my hand and gaze at the moon and the stars. I sat down, and went deep into my own thoughts. All I ever wanted was to care for someone, to comfort someone, and to be close, hug that person and never let go. As I was doing so, I told myself, tonight, I have decided to just keep everything inside my treasure box, and to never open it again. Everything that we once shared, the moments we spent together, the smile that you gave me, and the care that you showed me. That was the night that I told myself, I wouldn't want to let anyone feel bad or uncomfortable because of things that had happened. I have fallen to the ground twice, and I would stand up once again. But this time, something else is missing. Something that would perhaps take eternity for me to ever find it back once again. Today, everything else has became the beginning of a new ending. I have made my decision.

Life was always full of surprises,
Just like how you walked into my life,
You gave me a reason to care for,
A reason to look forward to tomorrow,
A reason to be strong, and a reason to keep smiling.
Life seemed so complete when you are around me

Unexpected of what was coming,
things has taken a change,
And I had to let you go,
Concealing my feelings,
I took my chances,
That left me alone once again,
Life, is really full of surprises.

Life is nothing but a walking shadow,
As well as the same as a book,
With many chapters of our lives,
And the ending of a chapter is the beginning of another.

Good night world.

Reflections

2010-08-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

When there is light, the feeling of hope is there,
But when the light fades, the feeling is all lost,
Passing through the an empty bane,
Bursting into a million fragments,
Each fragment brings a different light,
A different lightwave,
The light I held was there, as I slowly saw is coming,
Little by little, phasing forward,
Until it was within my grasp,
Held it closely, as close as I could,
For it was not easy to come by,
But fate played a test on me,
And soon it left, with tiny little traces,
The light that came, taught me a lesson,
A lesson well learned,
Looking into my own reflection,
Reflections I once thought, that were just illusions.

Life of the dreamer

2010-08-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

It has been months since I last updated my outdated blog.

I've been busy with my degree life since the last time updated.

Also, there has been alot of things that had happened.

Firstly, my trusted laptop died on me last month. Life has been in declined ever since then. Lab reports and assignments have been consuming most of my time, not to mention studying for quizzes and mid terms. Life is kinda hard without a laptop. It has been a tough time this past month without it, having troubles doing reports and assignments without it.

The latest bummer to happen was the rejection of my application for the PTPTN (Higher Education Fund) loan. I m now really clueless as of what to do. Without the loan, it is most likely that I may have to stop my studies again. Sigh, not to mention the troubles i went through due to financial problems before this.

Life here is really abstract. There were the fun times where I could meet new people, making new friends, rewriting my history, and not to forget the beautiful scenery around this place. Also not to forget the priceless moments I had with the new found friends here. To suddenly think that all this could just be gone in the blink of an eye is sometimes really too much for me to take.

At times, I really wonder what I should really do. There were some moments which left me really clueless and down, like a blind man without his walking stick. There were times where I really wish I could just stand up again from the fall i have just suffered, but life is never that easy. Sometimes, it takes more than just determination to do things to such great heights.

It was than I started to realised, the human heart is a very fragile thing. No matter how strong one may look on the outside, inside, there is always a fragile human heart. Emotions start to play around like the stars that shine in the skies. They can be there at one moment, and disappear the next second. Emotions can also be thrown away very easily, just like an empty can, without much hesitation.

At times, I really which that all this was just a dream. Where I could just wake up from this dream and everything will be alright. But this is the reality that I have to face. A reality, a fact, a truth that I must come to realize and face, things will never be the same again. Losing you was really lowest point I have ever faced all this 20 years I have been alive.

There were the times, people often said,
To take one step at a time, and do not rush,
Heeding those words was the last thing I ever did,
Thinking it was the right thing to do,
Slowly and surely, I thought that things were changing to be better,
Slowly, we walked into each other's life, just like how others did to ours,
So afraid to speak my mind, so afraid for your departure,
Buy happiness and joy filled my heart, when I heard the news,
Not letting it get into my head, I slowly take those tiny steps,
Until I heard what you said, I decided to let them out,
Those moments we shared, were the sweetest moments I had
Keeping them safely stored, in my secret box.
I wondered when a moment like this will ever come by again,
But I m determined, to relive it once again.

I shall be strong. I will preserver, and I will press on.
Hopefully I will get things right on track again.

Good night, world

This is for you, Belle

2010-05-29T01:46:00.001+08:00

I've just received the news from Dephanie that her dog passed away. I feel very sorry for her loss. Belle is a female golden retriever. I've heard so much about her from her owner. How close they were, how Belle would often play around with her owner, how "manja" Belle is with Deph, and so much more.

They had been together for a very long time, and how Belle would always be there for her owner. To just suddenly receive this news moments ago really shocked me too.From what I know, Belle has been battling with pneumonia for quite some time now.

You are more than just a very faithful companion,
You are more than just a loyal pet,
You are more than just any other dogs,
Because you special to her Belle,
For those you have touched their lives, you will always be remembered.
Especially her.
Rest in peace, Belle

May your soul be blessed and be happy always.

Realization

2010-05-28T01:15:00.002+08:00

"- It has been some time now since I've last written any post here. At the same time, I have also began to realized that in the process of meeting and making new friends along the way, I m sure some of you are offended by me. This thought came to me this afternoon while I was taking a stroll. I realized, of the many little differences we had. I realized, the similarity we had in common. How often we would have different points of view, not to forget the same ideas and thinking we too had. While taking these tiny little steps, we would progress further, in a 2 different directions. We may be drifting away further from each other, or moving in closer to each other. As I strolled against the peaceful gusts of winds, this particular point struck me, and struck me hard.

At some point of time, some of you may have noticed that I went "missing" for quite some time. I have been doing some serious thinking, and I have finally came to this realization. I have been neglecting most of you for quite some time now. I have been meddling with my own issues for a little too long now. Maybe for those of you who know me quite well, knows why. At times, I feel afraid to speak my heart out. Nevertheless, I would like to say sorry and give my sincerest apology to all those I have somewhat avoided or neglect or hurt with my actions, especially to those of you whom I really treasure more than life itself.

I have known people but never met them in person, people whom I met everyday but feel awkward to greet them, people who met me before but ignored me, and many others. But I realized, if I had taken the initiative, things would have been different. It occurred to me, that life is very very fragile. It can be taken from away from you at anytime - "

Taken from a random extraction of thoughts.

Here are a few quotes:

"People are like stained-glass windows.They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in,their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within" - Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

" Friends are made from a single moment, but true friends are made from your joy,happiness,sadness, sorrows and hardships" - Myself

Just another post on life in stills and scribbles.

Maybe, Someday we will meet again.

2010-04-28T01:21:00.005+08:00

Maybe, someday we will meet again,

While walking in a sea of strangers,

In a place so alienated,

Staring at each other in fascination,

Our minds trying hard to remember,

A face that was once so familiar,

A voice from the past, ringing closer

A distant memory flashing back from the yesterdays

When the time ever comes,

Destiny will have something in stored for us,

And just then, maybe,

Someday, we will meet again.

I Am Officially Missing You

2010-03-29T01:29:00.004+08:00

All I hear is raindrops,

Falling on the rooftop,

Oh baby tell me why you have to go,

Cause this pain I feel it won't go away,

And today, I am officially missing you.

I thought that from this heartache,

I could escape,

But I've fronted long enough to know,

There ain't no way,

And today, I am officially missing you.

Ooooh,

Can't nobody do it like you,

Said every little thing you do,

Hey baby said it stays on my mind,

And I'm, I'm officially missing you.

All I do is lay around,

Two years full of tears,

From looking at you face on the wall (face on the wall),

Just a week ago you're my baby,

Now I don't even know you at all,

I don't know you at all

And how I wished that you would call me right now,

So that I could get through to you somehow,

I guess it's safe to say baby, it's safe to say,

That I, I am officially missing you.

Ooooh,

Can't nobody do it like you,

Said every little thing you do,

Hey baby said it stays on my mind,

And I'm, I'm officially missing you.

Well I thought I could just get over you baby,

But I see it's something I just can't do,

From the way you would hold me,

To the sweet things you told me,

I just can't find a way,

To let go of you

Ooooh,

Can't nobody do it like you,

Said every little thing you do,

Said it stays on my mind,

And I'm, I'm officially missing you

It's official,

You know that I am missing you

Yeah yeah,

All I hear is raindrops,

Ooh yeah,

And I, I am officially missing you.

Nice song. Will try to cover it soon =)

Fly Me to The Moon

2010-02-24T20:40:00.003+08:00

The lunar moon elapsed as I sat there thinking,
Vague skies, darkness surrounds.
Its' beam is what, brings light to sight.

Nikon Photography Contest 2010

2010-02-04T02:31:00.003+08:00

As the title suggest, I m thinking of joining the contest.

This is actually my first time joining such a contest.

What are my chances of winning? 0.00001% perhaps? Haha.

Even a consolation prize would be good enough for me.

1st prize: Nikon D90 Kit with AF-S DX 18-105mm f3.5/5.6G ED VR lens
2nd prize: Nikon D5000 Kit with AF-S DX 18-55mm f3.5/5,6 ED VR lens
3rd prize: Nikon D3000 Kit with AF-S DX 18-55mm f3.5/5.6 ED VR lens
Consolation Prize: Nikon Speedlite SB-600 Flashgun.

Looks like i will have some travelling around to do. Melaka seems like a good place to start.

Anyone wants to join me for my trips?

Nothing Has Changed

2010-01-27T05:11:00.003+08:00

It has been almost a year since I last posted any entry on this blog.

I guess this blog wont be having anymore readers since its closure.

Have been going through some moments we often say "This is life".
Also, I've decided to reopen this blog, after I closed it somewhere middle of last year.

It's already 2010 now.

How long has it been since then? Maybe those yester-years were just figures, and dates were just another cynical moment to be forgotten.

People have already moved forward.
Quickening their paces, afraid of being left behind.
Plotting paths, marching to victory.
Chasing their dreams and goals.
Intertwined with each other.
Living the moment
And yet,

Nothing has changed.

At least, for me that is.

Appeciation.

2009-04-19T23:21:00.003+08:00

Curtains closes,
Emptiness looms,
Promises made,
Upholding words.
As it fades,
In the current of time.
Concealing emotions,
Accepting reality,
In the midst of sincerity.

Thank you for trying your very best to accept those feelings.
Even though things didn't worked out.

Sea Stars

2009-04-11T00:33:00.006+08:00

Overlooking the bay,
I see the horizon.
The empty skies,
Casting upon me.
Breaking the silence,
I spoke to myself.
Wishing you were here with me,
Together painting the skies with stars.
As I gaze once more upon the distant skies,
I see nothing else; only white clouds.
Thoughts of you,
Flooding my memories,
Amongst the sea stars.

Random Artistry

2009-03-29T17:16:00.004+08:00

Time's up

2009-03-27T15:01:00.003+08:00

Looks like its finally time for me.

Friends..

2009-03-27T02:25:00.003+08:00

This is a post to reply to Teddy.

His question was "What is the meaning of 'Friend' "?

Generally, the word friend means a person whom we know, maybe not very well, but just in a brief aspect.
I think there is more to that. Being a friend, be it a close one,the best friend or just an ordinary friend, in the end, a friend will always be there to lend a helping hand whenever we're in trouble, or in time of need. A person whom we know, maybe have done something wrong or something that may make us sad, break our hearts, hurt us deep inside, or even make us cry, but that doesn't mean that this person, is no longer our friend or a person we call friend.

I m very sure, whenever any of our friends hurt us, or make us cry, they have a reason behind it. For an example, D is friends with R and S. In default, of course D would be helping both R and S. But there are situations where helping either R or S will in turn make the other party sad or hurt. If this happens, can we say that either one of the is no longer D's friend just because D made them cry or sad? Some of you may say that a true friend wont make their friends sad or unhappy. A true friend will share the pain and joy with you, regardless of the situation. They will know the best and fastest way to make us happy again, and if not, they will try their best and do whatever it takes to cheer us up. As least that is what i think. As what Teddy has written

"If a person can make you sad and cry, that means the person possesses a certain position within your heart; a person who is of no importance to you will definitely not be able to make you cry, correct?"

I think that this is indeed very true. Maybe he is just some guy you don't really know, but he has done something that is capable of affecting your feelings. Certainly, deep down in your heart, this person means something to you. Is he still considered your friend even though you don't really know him? My answer would be yes.
Even the best of friends have their argument and fights before. It is not easy to form such a strong bond by just seeing each other everyday or knowing alot about the other person. It takes a whole lot more than that.

A friend doesn't have to be a person who makes you happy, it can also be a person who makes you sad. The only difference is, how these "friends" affect your life.
There are times where best friends make each other cry, but that doesn't mean that they are no longer friends.

Give some time for your friends to understand you, as well as for you to understand you better. No one is perfect, Mistakes and failures are what makes us better, making friendships stronger. Friends are not something you can just buy over with money or looks. Real friends don't expect anything in return for a favor they have done for you. They would be more than happy to help you out, regardless of themselves.

Lets all try to be a little more understanding of each other, we are all humans after all, and we all make mistakes.
Cherish the friends that we have now, and also the people around us. We will never know when will be the next time we will meet again. Just 5 minutes or a simple greeting like " Hey! or Hi!" will do. I m sure they would be happy to acknowledge you the same way you acknowledge them.

Good night.

Why

2009-02-21T13:28:00.003+08:00

Why does it has to happen to me,
Of all the time in space, its has to be now.

Why do i have to feel so lost,
Drifting in an unknown continuum.

Why am i feeling like i am right now,
All jumbled up, confused.

Why do i wish so much to be someone else,
When some wished they could be me.

Was it something that i did before,
Or was it you have already decided?

Was i that insignificant,
To be left out in an instant.

Perhaps its just a way of saying goodbye,
Or a hint to tell me how you feel.

Was it me, or was it you,
Perhaps its us both, or none at all.

Perhaps when the time comes,
I will know; why.

Transparent

2009-01-27T23:43:00.002+08:00

If only..

Just like the windy breeze that blows across..

2009-01-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

I've always wanted to go to somewhere windy, and just let the breeze run through my hair.
It really just takes my mind off everything, spending some time thinking all by myself.
I just love the feeling, although its hard to find such a place in the city.
It's pretty amazing when i came to this place, especially when its awesomely windy and not too sunny either.
I could just sit there for hours, doing nothing.

Perhaps, this will be the last place i'll ever be.

This is what i think.

2009-01-06T11:55:00.002+08:00

"Suffering is for one to bear himself,while happiness is for one to share with others"

I was tagged by Teddy to post a reply on this topic.

Here is what i think:

When a person suffers, the first thing that come to their minds is that, someone causes them to be in that state. Then the blaming game will start.When this starts, it will never end. So why even bother blaming others, when we should only be blaming our own selves.

Of course everyone would want someone to help them when they are suffering. Be their shoulder to cry on, lend a helping hand, be a person whom they can confide in, or even just listen to their constant rants and complains about how much life sucks, their problems etc etc. Not everyone will be as kind to just listen to the problems of others, because they have their own problems too. But then, Keeping it all to yourself and not letting others know your problems, can be cause a major, yes i mean MAJOR blow to yourself

So instead of bottling up everything to yourself, be a little more open. Let others help you. Be it your friends, family, your other halves. Look at it this way, sharing your suffering with others is not to burden them, but to help you find a solution which maybe, you're not able to do it on your own. It may seem selfish, but if those people are willing to lend a helping hand, why not?

No doubt, everyone shares their happiness with others, be it a newborn child, excellent examination results, marriage, and many other that you are able to think of. I mean seriously, i think its kinda abnormal if a person doesn't share his/her happiness with others. No offense, but perhaps that just interpret as that person doesn't like to share.
Its good to spread happiness around, so that people will be less unhappy, but very much happy.

But honestly to say, for those of you who know me quite well, i often share other people's problems, but i rarely tell others mine. My reason? Its because if i have a problem, why would i want to tell others about it, give them the extra load to worry about me, when i know somewhere inside my brain, i can get it done myself. How ironic isn't it? And i often share other people's problem. Its like the urge to help others. This sounds like some kind of confession wei! lols Please don't be like me. which i doubt any of you would want to. hahaha.

Okay that's all i guess. To Teddy, here's your reply.

P/S: Deph, if you're reading this post, just so you know that i m not emo or anything kay. =)

Farewell 2008, Aloha 2009

2009-01-01T14:57:00.008+08:00

It was an awesome night on new year's eve. Meeting up with old friends whom i haven seen in years. Here's are some of the pictures i took, so that makes me not being IN the picture( for those of you who are wondering =P)

Abel with his opening act!

Happy Goers

Our dinner, Pizzas from Domino's

Sherwan: What is that!?
Alven: I dunno man, I m just going to stone.

Our Datuk of the day: Datuk Allen Satish Gomez!! with Nic on the left

I took this pic randomly, but well, someone still managed to pose for the cam. lol

Follow my moves people!

True enough, they did, i mean we did. =D

one and only pic with myself in it. Thanks Allen! Man my face looks damn bulat!

Abel: Sherwan, you damn high wei!
Desmond: Ya wei!!
Sherwan: I m still sober!!

Fireworks at Danga Bay, view from the roof.

Chilling time =)

Smile for the camera peeps!

Fareez: Yeah! lets do it!! Group photo

Alven after getting really high and a madman smile on his face xD

Its was a non stop drinking and crap talking session. Catching up with those whom i haven seen in a long long time, nothing but a relaxing and enjoyable gathering for me. Thanks to Fareez for his place and also his roof. Rehab was once again re-lived.

There goes the year 2008, another written history of my past. 2008 was not a really good year for me i would say. Many sad and bad luck for me. But, thing were sorf of getting better towards the end of the year.
New year resolution:
1. Look for a job until my results are out, and until i get into university
2. HOPEFULLY, spend less with the global economy crisis, which i know i will not.
3. Always do more GOOD than EVIL
4. And the list just goes on and on.

Those are a few of the things i had in mind for 2009 myself. What about you peeps?

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO 2009!

Eh wait!, you know what? Chinese New Year is coming and i haven even finish shopping la wei!
Crap....
Shopping anyone..??

Of Donuts and Customs

2008-12-24T11:24:00.004+08:00

I went to City Square yesterday, after jamming with Xavier and Co. Actually, i went there to look for clothes to shop, but i can't seem to find any. Went with Chen Yeong, and we decided to take a visit to the new CIQ Complex.

The Entrance of the Complex from City Square

Part of the Complex

Escalators leading into the Complex

The stairs leading to the bus stops.

The Customs Bridge

The New Customs Complex, taken from the bridge in City Square.

It's rather big i would say, and the design of the exterior is relatively nice. But its still not fully finished constructing. There is still a long long way to walk into after you go into the entrance. Now that would be a hassle for those going into Singapore.

Also, there is this new donuts shop in City Square, its called J.Co. Its an Indonesian franchise. And its located on the ground floor, right next to StarBucks Coffee. Looks like more and more new stores are opening in City Square. I suggest you guys go try out their donuts if you happen to go there. Next stop, Big Apple Donuts! lols

Look what's written on the cup. lol

A little Christmas Note from J.Co

J.Co Donuts! Soft and Yummy!

Donuts and Choco Freeze

J.Co's Chocolate Freeze

Solitude In the rain

2008-12-09T17:32:00.003+08:00

Today you went on somewhere,
As i started to wonder where are you and what you are doing now.

Today there was an emptiness inside me,
As i waited for the days to pass,

Today i began to miss you even more,
As i hoped that it would be you each time the phone rang.

Today i started to think when will be the next time we meet each other again,
As our last meeting seems like forever.

There was so many, i wished we could do,
But it seems, fate hated me.

I would keep me awake just to hear your voice,
And i would run forever just to reach you.

I know how selfish i m to you at times,
Regretting every moment, when i m at it.

Tonight, as i lay in my bed thinking of you,
Thoughts which never seem to be spoken.

Well, this is just abit random. and i also kinda thought of closing down my blog, since i rarely post anything here nowadays. and i would say that people also rarely come by. Well, maybe i will delete it by the end of this month. Till then.

Graduation.

2008-11-23T10:46:00.004+08:00

Its been a long and winding journey, and i've finally finish my A-Levels course. During this 1 and a half years, i've been through many events with new found friends in the course.

This maybe the last time some of us will be meeting each other, as all of us will go our separate ways.Hope you guys will be able to persue your dreams and make them come true.

Keep in touch!

One Eight

2008-11-18T17:52:00.003+08:00

Maybe i should have done something like Homer in the pic here yesterday. Hmm. Oh well. its too late for that now.

10 Promises To My Dog

2008-11-10T20:32:00.002+08:00

Here's the synopsis:
Set in modern day Japan, “10 Promises to My Dog” tells the story of 14-year-old Akari (Mayuko Fukuda) and her newfound female puppy which she discovers at her backyard. Because the puppy has white markings resembling socks on its paws, Akari gives her the name Socks. Akari’s mother (Reiko Takashima) approves of Socks being part of their family only on condition that Akari keeps “The 10 Promises” – the 10 commandments equivalent of owning a dog. Hence begins a 10-year friendship filled with joy as well as setbacks which put Akari’s commitment to fulfill “The 10 Promises” to the test.

Akari is a 14-year-old schoolgirl living in Japan's northern island of Hokkaido. One day, a puppy wanders into her yard, looking lost and frightened. She is a Golden Retriever with white paw markings. Akari names her Socks. Akari's mother consents to her keeping the dog but only after she agrees to keep 10 Promises to Socks . Akari enthusiastically assents and the two begin their journey of growing up together. Akari finds herself having to overcome many changes and challenges: the tragedy of her mother's death, father's sudden resignation, coming-of-age, first romantic feelings, career ambitions and her independence. But at every step, Socks is there to provide unquestioning love and support.

Its really touching, and it actually brought me to tears. *alamak malu seh!* haha. It was on cinema last month. but i think its down already. If any of you get the chance to watch it, i would say that its a really nice movie to watch, although its not a blockbuster movie or anything.

Pictures Galore!

2008-10-07T21:21:00.010+08:00

I'll let the pics do the talking =)

Needless to say. it was a very fun day indeed. thanks for the happy moments guys and girls! i m gonna miss all of you after A2. take care! =)

Ups and Downs

2008-09-25T21:30:00.013+08:00

It has been a rather unsual week this time.

First off, just after the week long holidays, my bio lecturer. Ms Tan left us, yet again. First Ms Choo, now Ms Tan too. She didnt tell us what's her reason, but said it was rather urgent. Sigh. With just few weeks to A2, all this has to happen. What luck! All of us were sad. We will miss you Ms Tan! Do come back and visit us, and take care too.

Then, first time after months, the whole class went out for lunch together again! After the many twist and turns of events, it was rather hard getting these people along together just to have lunch. And this time round, we have a new addition of our member, she is no other than Stephanie Serene Gan! *ta daa*. Well, yeah she's our new classmate, which i would say is rather quiet in class, but is real friendly if you'd really know her.

We went to Jusco Tebrau City to had our lunch. We went to this place called East Court. Only managed to took a few pics. Well, here they are.

Zhemin: yohoho! Xavi, what is wrong?
Xavi: Nothing la! Just like to stare at you.
Bee Yen: Haiz, this two are at it again.
Steph:*thinking* Xavi must be gay. xD

Chin: Weeee! My pawns are pawned!!
Sherwynd: Hahahahaah!. Chin, balik kampung tanam jagung laa! You got OWNED!!
Dinesh: hahaha, i agree bro.
Rachael & Li Wee: *Giggles*
Steph: *thinking again* Is it me or just them? What is wrong with these people?

Me and My Baskin's Brownie ala Mode with M & M's and hard chocolate toppings! YUM!

Sherwynd: Oooh! That feels good. xD
Dinesh: Look at ma shoe!!

Xavier's car being abused by B1 and B2. lol!

Next up, Xavi's birthday at Danga City Mall:

Here a pic taken on the inside. It looks rather like a shopping mall in KL, but quite a number of lots there are still unoccupied. Main event there was to try out archery, though i didnt manage to take any photos during the session. crap. It was fun, no doubt. here's a few random pics

Xavi: Hohohoho! AKulah paling hemsem hari ini!! xD
Chin: Where the heck is the lift??! Idiots!

Sherwynd: Check out my skillz!! I m gonna smoke you!
P/s: padahal he lose to me. LOL. =D

Well, thats all that happen over the week days. and one more thing, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DYMM XAVI! hahahha.

P/S: The Author of this blog is really having fun with the captions isn't he? xD

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival.

2008-09-14T21:27:00.003+08:00

Happy Mid- Autumn Festival guys and girls.
Hope all of you have a nice and wonderful day, whoever you're with.

Just another day of life

2008-09-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

Trials is just over. Had a little time to de-stress and hang out with friends.

Bought a new pair of flip-flops at Metrojaya Plaza Pelangi. Then followed my mum to Cold Storage to get a few things.
Went jamming at Hop Music with Xavi, Alven and Kishern after that.
I haven't seen this dude in a long long time. Didnt change much though.
Went and played pool at City Plaza with Alven after jamming.
We are suppose to go to Singgah Selalu and have dinner, but it was too packed. So instead we went to Carabao and had our dinner.
We did some catching up, talk some crap. and that's all.
What a short day it was.

Good night people.

Eyes on me...

2008-09-14T00:53:00.004+08:00

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Another Quickie.

2008-08-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

Kinda busy these few weeks. And i will be equally busy preparing for A2 the next few months.

Well, I had a trip to Singapore last Friday. Was kinda fun but tiring though. haha. We went to Paragon when we just reach Orchard to get Mr. Voon's Crumpler bag. After that, we went to Wisma Atria to look for Ms.Ho dresses and sandals. We went to few shops; Forever 21, Dorothy Perkins, Iora, Warehouse and a few more ( i forgot what is the names) but we didnt manage to find any nice clothes that suits her. Only manage to get a purple top and a purple shorts at Iora. The Topshop at Wisma was closed for renovations, which got Ms Flora Ho nuts! lol. Kept on asking me why her TopShop didnt open. -_-". Had lunch in Food Republic.

After lunch, we went to Takashimaya and there she began another hunting session for the clothes she wanted. But sadly, there wasnt any, again. Went to the basement and bought some Beard Papa Cream Puffs. Its been some time since i last ate them.So yummy! Haha. We walked around for a little while more before we decided to go to Bugis Junction, our last and final destination.

We took the MRT there. While walking for a while, Sherwynd and i got a shock. Our Ms. Ho was screaming like a mad lady.lol And guess what, she screamed because she saw her beloved TopShop there. ( -_-") and she dragged us into the shop with her, BUT, again, the clothes she wanted to buy has no size for her. Pity her. haha. Always want to buy something, but its either no size, or its out of stock. We made our way through the flee market opposite Sim Lim Square and walked to the Queen Street bus station and head back.

The crowd at the Customs Checkpoint is seriously scarry. Or maybe its been 10-12 years since i last been to Singapore.

Next, We had BBQ as Flora's place on Saturday. Just a few of us were there, its a small party. Had some nice food and entertainment.

Thats about the events that took place the past few weeks.

Sorry if my blog appears to be kinda dead or slow with the posts the next few months.

Goodnight people. Cheers!

Updates

2008-07-23T15:41:00.002+08:00

This is just a quick update.

Ah, i feel a whole whole lot better today. Just recovered from my flu-sore throat-fever-headache sickness. I've already been lying in bed for the past 2 days.
Oh yeah. and many many thanks to everyone for their warm wishes when i was sick. It made me feels so much better
= ).

Other news, performance that was due this Sunday was canceled. Now that kinda suck.i'll just leave out the details of why it was canceled. So now that left me free on Sunday. Hmm. Maybe i should just stay home and continue studying. Test is due next week. Ah crap. and so is the Science Week project.

Then again, I m dying to go to the cinema to catch some movies! Dang! I've already missed so many new movies. Wouldn't want to miss them again. Anyone free next week? Care to join me for a movie? This is a once in a lifetime invitation to catch a movie with me okay! Only once! not twice! Haha. Nah i m just joking, but i wouldn't mind if any of you guys wanna come and join me, or invite me for a movie (i'll be more than happy to take that chance! hehehe!) lols.Just kidding.

And my car is finally back soon, after 4 long months being in the workshop for repairs. I sure hope it turns out to be as good as new. Haha. But with the current fuel prices, there is gonna be a BIG hole in my wallet soon. lols. I guess that's all for now.

Signing off. Cheers!

Good Friends and Just Friends.

2008-07-11T21:52:00.005+08:00

A Little boy and his dog.

They always say that dog is a man's best friend. Its really amazing how close us humans can get with our beloved pets. But its really sad to know that humans can't get along with each other as well as we do with our pets. Supposedly, humans should be able to get along with each other better than we do that of our pets.

I m pretty sure all of us have all sorts of friends. Best friend, Buddies, Good friends, Best friends forever all those kind of things, and or maybe just plain normal friends. But do we really cherish these relationships we have created with others?

Everyone can choose the type of people they wanna befriends with, be it the person is good or bad. But its really sad to know that they only befriend you because they just need someone at the moment, like when they're down, sad, lonely, in trouble etc. And being their friends, we cared and comfort them whenever they down, sad, help them when they're in need. After they've gone through that hard time, they just totally ignore you,they push you aside and they also try to avoid you. Its like after what you have done to help them, you can't even be "just" friends with them.

Well, maybe to them, friendship is just something that can be bought back anytime, or friendship is just another item they can afford to lose. Good friends hardly lies, because they know you, they know what it feels like. Its really hard to form a really strong bond with others. But it is also very easy for that bond to be broken..

Disappoint me, not to disappoint you,
Hurt me, not to hurt you,
Leave me, not to leave you.
Forget me , remember you.

Just a thought.

2008-07-08T17:20:00.004+08:00

I didn't went to college today, had a massive migraine when i woke up. i can't even walk properly.

So i went online at about 11 plus. After some time, i had a chat with Teddy.
Our main topic was about my new Chemistry lecturer, which soon drifted off to me writing songs.
Teddy asked me to record my songs and post in on YouTube, which is something i definitely won't do.
He asked me to be like Marie Digby, the singer-songwriter who shot to fame through YouTube.

Now' honestly speaking, i don't really like too much attention. I mean, i rather keep a low profile.

Which in turn, this came to my mind.

Now, come to think of it, there has to be an "anti" or the opposite for almost everything.

Here's an example:

Certain- Uncertain.

So,.....

If people who seeks attention are called "Attention-Seeker",

Then what do you call people who doesn't want any attention?

"Attention- Unseeker"? or "Unattention- Seeker"?

Lol. Anyone knows what the term or phase used to brand these type of people?

Apart from that, I m still deciding whether or not should i cut my hair, cause its getting longer and longer.
Hmm.

Chronicles Of Life

2008-07-06T16:35:00.003+08:00

I m feeling kinda low lately. Actually WAY low.

I began to realize, i often stare blankly at my surroundings, thinking about nothing, or well perhaps something.
I don't know why. Its like, something has just been taken away from me.
Maybe some Martian came to my room and SUCKED half of my brain out while i was sleeping.
Or maybe i had some sort of brain damage or something. i don't know!
It has to be the Martian i tell you.
I m gonna wait for it to come by again tonight and GET MY STOLEN BRAIN BACK!
Okay , thats just pure stupidity. Forgive me for that.

I've got way too many things on my mind right now.
And when you try to get everything done as quickly as possible, but nothing gets really done in the end. You know, that kind of feeling. Well, yeah. That kinda what i m going through at the moment.
BLEAHHH!!!!! just felt like saying that out.

Chemistry class nowadays are more of like a torture. Ask the rest and you'll know why.
The pace is way too slow. How i wished my previous lecturer was still around. Sigh.
Just hoped that i can get over with whatever i m going through now and do well for my A2.

*BIG SIGH*

A2, seems so far away a few months back. But now its drawing closer and closer. And i m not even the slightest bit ready to face it! Ack! Looks like its gonna be a few more months of sleepless nights for me again. Hopefully i'll be able to last until A2 is over.

For now, i'll just do whatever i can.

I just want to be transparent..

2008-07-02T20:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i just feel like running away from all of my troubles.
How i just wished i could just hide in my closet or just be transparent and watch the world just pass by around me.
I wish i could just press the fast-forward button and just watch everything around me go zooming, except me

Good night.

Cookies and Cream

2008-06-29T00:39:00.004+08:00

I dont know why i just cant seem to sleep. I tried to slept at about 10.15pm, but all i've been doing is rolling about in bed.Its 2am now. Something just seems to bother me, but i dont know what is it. *BIG SIGH* So i've decided to blog instead..

Oh well, so i went to the Festiva Of Arts(FOA). I reached kinda later though. I can hear a band performing "Always Be My Baby" by David Cook while i was walking inside. Met Alven and the rest inside. Oh, and i met Joylyn too. Omg, She sure changed a WHOLE LOT! almost couldnt recognize her just now. haha. then there's Abel, Wei-Xun, Xavier and Philip Pang! Now he's a nice guy. This is the first time i m actually meeting him. haha. oh yeah, and he looks kinda different from the photos of him i have seen. lols.
So we hang-out outside of the hall, its too hot inside. And the turnout for the event is pretty high too. there were a couple of nice performances. And this time, there's more variety to the performances rather than only bands. Its was enjoyable. I didnt really stayed for the whole thing. Went jamming with Xavier and co in hop at 12.30pm.

We tried a few songs there, and Xavier's sister joined us. haha. So ,we're confirmed one song, Zombie by the Cranberries. Still deciding whether wanna solo perform the other song, or we choose another one, haha. Someone asked me to perform " always be my baby" by david cook. well, i'll perform that song if that person comes. haha, cause that person wanted to hear it live. =D.

So we ended our session at 3pm, and i went to Plaza Pelangi to have tea with Mr.Howard aka Teddy. haha We went to Secret Recipe to have tea. Oh yeah. And a Big thanks to him, for treating me. haha. Seriously, thanks! after almost a year we didnt met. hahaha.

Nothing much after that, just went home and rest. Kinda tiring.

And my current mood is : Confused

I guess thats all people. Have a good night..

Music Inspires

2008-06-20T14:46:00.003+08:00

Music has never failed to keep emotions and feelings kept, in a more soothing manner. I m pretty sure, music is a part of everyone's life, and Music has always inspired my life. In fact, it has somewhat became a part of my life. Most of the time, it would always be only me and the music, nothing else.

Whether i am happy, sad, emotional, or lonely, music never fails to inspire me and keep me on my feet.
It has even inspired me to write a few songs about life, my feelings and things that are happening around me. Although i used to play the keyboard, and violin, I only play the guitar now. I m not very good at it, but it keeps me occupied.

1 weeks has passed since my holiday started, and i've been home for the whole week, doing nothing, except going online, playing some games etc etc. Thankfully, there's Festival Of Arts(FOA) next Saturday. Now at least there's somewhere i can go. Haha. Hopefully i'll be going for it, unless something else clashes with it. Now, i've got the next 7 days or so to think about how to spend my time. Dang!.

Ideas anyone?

Done.

2008-06-13T19:13:00.009+08:00

Finally, My exams are over after a one long month period.

Now, i've got 2 weeks to do nothing. lol

My old phone rosak, Have to get a new one. Bought a Sony Ericsson to replace my old Nokia.

So, after Biology Paper 1, which was okay, went to Plaza Pelangi with Sherwynd and Flora. Main objective: Flora wants to look for her new phone and they both want to cut their hair.

Went to McD, again ( i know someone sure say i go McD again, ahem!) and had breakfast there. I ate a Sausage McMuffin with Egg set, which wasn't very tasty Maybe cause no appetite.

Then we went and walk around PP to look for saloons for our 2 models, looking at the price, etc etc.
After about 20 mins, they finally went to E-Vogue and potong.

After that at about 1.15pm, Chen Yeong came, then we went to Hop and meet Xavier to jam. Here are some pics in the studio:

Our Bassist for the day!

Xavi: Err.. What key already ah??

Xavi: Watch my skills!

Me. Thanks to Xavi for taking the pic

Was so tired after i came back. We only managed to play a few songs. Went home at 5pm. Thanks guys for the jamming session. Had some fun. haha. Now i 've got 2 weeks of i dont know what to do. Lol. Hopefully my dad will take us somewhere la.

Thats all folks. =)

Of Incidents

2008-05-28T16:41:00.005+08:00

Okay. Although my exams isnt over yet, but i'll just update my blog. Thanks to the sweet ms dephanie, who is so eager and pushing me to update my blog =p

Lots of natural disasters have happened lately. First was Cyclone Nagris, then the Sichuan earthquake. Countless of lives have been lost in these disasters. As Malaysians, we should be grateful that our country are not hit by such disasters. It is really a tragic incident, as many have lost their love ones. I really feel sorry for those who are affected by the tragedy.

Looking aside from that, now lets look into something that is happening in our own country.

I'll just have a simple question to ask.

Is this school uniform sexy?

Here's what i have to say:
1. As far as i m concern, this school uniform has already been around for more than 10 years, or maybe even more. Why the sudden call for it to be reviewed? I think the person who came out with this statement that the current school uniform is sexy, using the word "sexy" is a wrong choice. I do agree that the baju kurung is indeed too transparent at times, but it is NOT sexy. But how does it promote pre-marital sex and rape?
2. For pre-marital sex to occur, it requires the agreement or acknowledgment of both the guy and the girl. So, how does it actually promotes pre-marital sex?
3. It promotes rape in the sense that it is too transparent and people are able to see thru it? What nonsense. Rape occurs when the guys forces himself on the victim. How does the transparency help the guy in forcing himself on the victim? It gives the guy the urge to rape the victim even more? I think the problem lies with the guy, and not the school uniform. It is the mentality of the guy, that is the cause that rape actually happens. Instead of blaming the attire, why not take tougher action against the offender? Might as well you implement that all the schoolgirls wear armor with biometric lock to schools. Now, wouldnt that be ridiculous?
4. This is what amuses me, the schoolgirls are trying to seduce, yes, seduce the guys by wearing so. May i ask a question? Which girl is so smart enough to use a SCHOOL UNIFORM to seduce a guy? If i was a girl, i'd rather wear something else, than THAT to attract a guy. No offense, but its just an example.
5. The person who came out with the statement also said that schoolgirls purposely wear half-cup bras to seduce the guys. Helloooo, whatever the girl chooses to wear on the inside is totally the freedom of that individual. By restricting it, isnt that the same as taking away the freedom of that individual to dress? Moreover, no one ask the guys to look what the girls are wearing on the inside. So once again, it has nothing wrong with the school uniform.

I personally think that the MAIN problem lies with the guys and their mindset. As a reminder, guys, please control yourselves. Guys are suppose to protect the girls, not treating them as your slaves just because you are physically stronger.

Well, i m interested to see what you guys think. Feel free to leave a comment.

Leaving.

2008-04-27T20:31:00.002+08:00

You left us far too soon,
You should be still here with us,
You left us without a word,
Leaving our empty hearts hanging in the air.
Trying to be strong, holding back tears,
Some just broke down, crying like a child,
You leaving us is just too much,
A blow too heavy, even for soldiers..

Although you are no longer with us, but we know you'll always be in our hearts.
I hope you would take care, and you're happy wherever you are now.

OMG, He's so hot!

2008-04-14T14:36:00.003+08:00

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Well, this would be a rather funny post. Want to know who's hot? scroll down to find out!

MR BEAN!

He's just so hot! Damn!

Look at those chest hair!Its so hairy and curly. *whistle* It even has a Chromosome(X-shape) pattern.
Oh,Oh!! And those round eyes! as round as grapes.(O_O!!)

His excessive fats makes he look even hotter!! Ahh!!!

His big and massive nose! Everyone's gonna drool over it man.

And the most important thing, he's in his briefs! OMG!!! *faints*

Who can get any hotter than this dude?!

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Disclaimer:The owner of this blog is NOT gay.

LOL! Thats just for laughs. XD
I've just finish my Advance Subsidiary (AS) Trials. Don't know how my results would be. Oh yeah, I m having a week break from college too.
As good as it gets, i need some workout. rather than just bumming at home, sleeping and staring at my computer screen.

Goodbyes were never easy.

2008-03-21T19:46:00.003+08:00

Waving your hand may look simple and easy, But saying goodbye to the person you loved the most can be very heartbreaking. The feelings deep down inside is just too much to be kept unexpressed. Saying goodbye is never easy, never..

As i m writing this post, i m saying goodbye to a person, whom i held dearly.

You have the sweetest smile i've ever seen,
You're the sweetest person i've ever knew,
And you're the sweetest person in my life.

I'll miss you so much. Please take good care of yourself and be happy always.

Goodbye..

Clueless

2008-03-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

I just realized that i m starting to get very clueless lately.
I've been wasting too much time doing nothing.
I just can't figure out what to do.A part of me just suddenly disappeared.
Just like this post, I can't even think about what to post.

Other news, I've got my driving license, finally.
Exams are coming and i m busy working, I m so gonna screw up my AS. sigh.

No one would even care, would they?
Come what may.

Goodnight.

Empty

2008-02-24T14:01:00.011+08:00

Dear Blog,

As I awake from my sleep, I was greeted with the rays of sunlight that shone through my window. "What a wonderful morning", I said to myself, as I tidied my bed and went out from my room. As I look into the mirror in the bathroom, I saw dark circles beneath my eyes. My eyes were red and tired. "I look like a zombie..", I thought to myself. The truth is, I haven't slept for nights. Thoughts of you kept running through my mind. I kept thinking to myself, about the things you've done, and words you've said to me in the past and now. They just seems to keep ringing in my head.Tears just seem to flow out from my eyes whenever these thoughts came to my mind. I think back on the words i've said to you.

.........................................................................................................................................................................

I still remembered the first time we knew each other, the way we used to text each other almost every minute, the chat we used to have on the phone, the conversations we had online, the date we used to had. But all that just came to an end, just because of my foolishness. I told you words, emotions and feelings that i thought should be told, but instead, things turned the other way. Ever since that day, everything changed. We no longer text each other as often as we used to, we no longer chat on the phone, we rarely had online conversations, and we don't go out together anymore. You left me waiting, alone..

People said that you should just speak your mind, and go for it. They even said that true love do exist. I believed in those words, hoping it would really happen to me.
I realized each word you said to me before has a hidden meaning, but i can't seem to figure it out.I realized that everything lies within me.. I tried to be there for you, I tried to give you the love you wanted, I gave in, but i guess it just wasn't enough as you kept pushing me away. I told myself, " It doesn't matter how you treat me.As long as you're happy, i m contented". Years has pass since we first knew each other..I really miss the sound of your voice, and that lovely smile on your face.. I miss you.

I really do..
Sometimes, I sat down looking at the skies, and I wondered..

Will that day ever come..?

Illusions

2008-02-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

There was a little boy that lived and grew up in a small town. He was a very cheerful and playful boy. Each time he steps out of his house, there will always be a smile on his face. A cheerful smile that would never fail to make people around him happy and not left out. He had a number of friends because of his don't worry, be happy attitude.His primary friends always stick with him because his jokes never fail to amuse them.

As he grew up, this character follows him wherever he goes.He will always helps others whenever they have a problem. Many of his friends seek him whenever they have problems because they know, they know that this boy will bring the smiles back on their faces.

But there is one thing they didn't know.

Not even his parents know about this. Each time he comes back, whenever he enters his room and shuts the door, the cheerful smile on his face is immediately replaced with a sad face and tears will drop from his eyes. This boy is actually a very lonely person.

He never tells anyone, not even his parents about his problems. He keeps them to himself. He won't seek the help of others when he is troubled. He always sees himself as a tool, a tool to make sure that everyone around him is always happy. Whenever he sees them happy, he will also feel happy for them. It has been almost 11 years and it has become a daily cycle for this boy. It doesn't matter if they don't repay him, it doesn't matter if they treat him bad, if doesn't matter if he was hurt, but he will repay others if they helped him.It is just the way he is. He can't change it. Each time before he sleeps, he would think back on things he had done, the effects on others. He would then pray for the happiness of the people around him, people he knew, and his loved ones.. Sometimes, he wonder how would the world be without him. Would it be better? or would it be worst..

Life is nothing but a walking shadow for this boy...

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2008-02-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

Woah, its been months since i last update. Sorry for the late posts. Been kinda busy lately.

Had my ups and downs too.

Well, Chinese New Year is here!

Nice food and red packets are the main events. hehe
Bought some new clothes, shoe, and some accesories.

And i also want to thank someone, for everything ; ). hehe

well, nothing much i guess.
HAPPY CNY EVERYONE!!!
hope you guys get lots of ang pau. hehhe

Cold Christmas.

2007-12-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

Its that time of the year again..

Christmas is just a few days away. Everyone is rushing to get their jobs done, so they can celebrate Christmas. Many are also rushing to get christmas for their friends, family and loved ones. Looks like its gonna be a lonely christmas for me again. Well, it doesn't really matters anyways.

Early Merry Christmas Everyone.

Hope all of you have a great time with your loves ones and enjoy your christmas.

When its gone..

2007-12-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

A young couple, holding hands while walking on a railway track. towards an endless path.

People always come and just go, some leaving traces behind in our lives, some don't. It happens to everyone of us, where a person comes into our life, brightens it, and just leave suddenly, but only on rare occasions they will stay on. It really hurts us to know that this person who came into our life is slowly fading away from us. To a point where it all ends.

I just came to realize that i m in the same situation. That special someone came, made me a better person, but then just leave without leaving any traces behind. It left a mark in my heart, that this person has made, and a very special one indeed. It is only now that i realize it is slowly fading, and it will be gone, eventually. Just like a magic show, where that special person would be the magician and i am the audience, with her amazing me for that moment, and after the show, everything returns but not the feeling. You'll know when it is starting to fade, just like a flower wilting in winter..

Thank you for making me a better person,

Thank you for the sleepless nights you made me think about you,

Thank you for the early morning messages you sent me,

Thank you for the tears you made me shed,

Thank you for the moments you made me happy,

Thank you for letting me know you,

Thank you... for everything you have done.

In turn, i would like to apologize if those confessions and words i'd said before hurt you. I hope you'll find the right person for yourself.. I'll always be there as usual, when you need me.

Good night.

17 and still counting.

2007-11-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

17 years old as the title said.

Went out with the whole class except Chin, Wei Hsien, Fu Yao and Li Wee, because they couldnt make it. Thanks anyway guys.

We went to Tebrau City today. Met up with our Ms. Flora and Mr. Sherwynd at TOPSHOP. Usual la, Flora want to buy her TOPSHOP clothes. Haha. They we met Dinesh, Zhemin, Bee Yen and Xavier after that. We went and walk around a little while before we went to Lavender Bistro and had our lunch. We went to Jusco and bought some tid bits and went off to Austin Heights Clubhouse. We had so much fun there. Too bad the pool table is available, if not, it would have been more fun. We also planned to swim, but a few of us didnt brought their swimming attire We played ping pong, and the main attraction of the day, FUSBALL!!!. Haha. All of us was so high with the machine until the machine actually moved from its actual place. lol. It was so fun. We also had some sweet moments there. *ahem*. haha.

Flora and Xavier went back early and didnt join us for dinner at arounf 6.30 at Permas Jaya. We had our dinner at a place called "Nasi Lemak Berlauk" at Senibong. The place is so beautiful, because it is by the sea. It had a wonderful view of the sun setting. The place was crowded too. After dinner, we sat and chat, and laugh so much. Haha Here are some of the pics:

The TOPSHOP T-Shirt Ms. Flora, Sherwynd and Joanne bought for me

The cake Bee Yen, Zhemin and Dinesh baked for me. (With my name on it) =D

The view of the sun setting

Bee Yen trying out my shades. She looks good with it.

Zhemin and Sherwynd after the meal

Joanne, Dinesh and Bee Yen

The chatting session after our meal.

Bee Yen: Aiyo, Zhemin!! What's so funny??

Dinesh: I also dunno la Bee Yen.

Sherwynd: I look cool anot?

Joanne: Oh my, Sherwynd is soo cool.

Zhemin: WAKAKAKAKAKA

After that, Dinesh drop us at The Store bus stop.Sherwynd and I took a bus back home while he sends Zhemin and Bee Yen home.

Hey guys, Thanks so much for coming! I really had a great and enjoyable time with you all today. Thanks for the t-shirt and the homemade cake. Really appreciate it. I hope you all had a great time too!! Thanks again!!!

I really dont know what to blog about.

2007-10-21T23:22:00.001+08:00

I really dont know what to blog about these days

Its like nothing much have really happened around me, or maybe its just that things are moving so fast that i didnt have time to realize it.

Its going to be the end of October soon. And then comes November.
A few checklist on the things i'll be doing in Nov:

1. Get my driving license***
2. Presents for friends
3. Present for Miss D. (dunno she will accept it or not)
4. Shopping for Annual Ball in December
5. Study for semester end exam
6. Practice for Annual Ball

and so many more, just can't seem to figure it out now. I'm sure i will when the time comes.
For now, lets just concentrate on what's in front of me and be happy.

p/s: to the new couple of A-Levels July 07, hope you guys be happy always and congrats! =)

Good nite everyone.

Japanese Visit and Monash Trip

2007-10-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

Its been some time since i last updated my blog. Well, i was kinda busy for the past few weeks because of exams and events.

There are a few events that happened during those few weeks. 2 main events i would say.

First, there was a Japanese visitation to college on the 3rd of October. Its was from Chibakokusai Jr High School from Japan.

Well, basically my whole class was involved in the event. 6 of us were even "models" for the traditional costume Catwalk.

Here's something interesting. Most of the Japanese students dont dare to eat or even try our "pisang goreng" and currypuff. Only a few did. We also offer them our local favourite, Roti Canai to them, but only a few tried. One more thing, they cant stand the smell when the "roti canai guy" is frying it on the grill. Weird. What's smell is it that they can't stand it?

All of us accompanied at least 1 Japanese student. They also taught us how to make the paper crane and other things that can be folded using paper, in other words its Origami. Oh yeah, and they also brought sweets from Japan, which is so nice. I wished i could grab the whole bag. hehe

They had a tour around the campus, and then went back after that at around 1pm.

Here are some pictures:

The Catwalk Models

Kanae and me

Pic with the Tough Looking Sensei ( what is Zhe Min so happy about? lol)

On the 6th of October, we had a trip to Monash University and also Sunway University College.

We had to wake up so darn early! Why? Because Monash University is only open for half-day on Saturday. So, we had to leave at 3.30am. Yes, 3.30AM, not PM for KL. The trip in the morning was so cold, the air i mean. We talked alot, i and really mean alot on the way up. We also stop by the Burger King in Skudai.

We reached Monash University around 9am. Their campus was awesome. Its so big compared to how it looks like on the outside. A talk was held at the lecture theater. Even their lecture theather was cool. After the talks, we were brought on a campus tour. The best thing about it was their cafeteria. They have 1901 Hotdogs and Sanfrancisco Coffee!! Woot, i love those!. haha. We took some pictures and left for Sunway University College at around 1pm

Nothing much to talk about at Sunway Uni. Just had a short talk about the courses available there and a virtual campus tour because of the change of plans. The bus driver had to go back early because he need to "buka puasa", and Ms Wong promised us 2 hours of shopping at Sunway Pyramid. So at 3.30pm, we all went to Sunway Pyramid. Its been alot time since i last went there.

We went and walk around awhile. We went to Sushi King and had our late lunch. Met Akashah, Soon Leng and Min Jern there. We didnt really enjoyed our food, mainly because Sushi King was to packed and we only manage to get places and place our orders 30 minutes before the time we had to leave for JB. So we quickly finished our foods and rush to the place we were dropped. On the way there, I met with Desmond, Fareez and Shawn. J. After that, we left for JB. We stopped at Ayer Keroh Overhead Restaurant and had our dinner there because the Malays need to "Buka puasa" We had A&W waffles with ice-cream. haha.

On the way back, something "interesting" happened in the bus. Hehe. I shall not say anything about it. Zhemin and Da jie was so high. lol. Singing so loud in the bus. I was singing too but not as loud. =p. We reached college at about 11.15pm. It was so tiring, travel 300km thru and flow in one day.

Sorry but i cant upload the pics because the files are too big. It was quite fun though.Hope we have a better class trip next time. Thats all about it. See ya folks. =)

Filled with Anger, Sadness and Frustration

2007-09-22T12:59:00.001+08:00

On September 18,

PETALING JAYA: She was just a little girl. But that did not stop some sick monster from killing her after sexually assaulting her. Her naked body was stuffed into a sports bag and left at the staircase of a shop lot in PJS1/48 Petaling Utama yesterday. There were bruises on her neck, suggesting that she may have been strangled. There were also bruises on her hands. The girl, said to be between six and nine, was initially feared to be eight-year-old Nurin Jazlin Jazimin who has been reported missing. But Nurin Jazlin’s parents, who rushed to the Hospital Kuala Lumpur mortuary, said it was not their daughter.Petaling Jaya police chief Asst Comm Arjunaidi Mohd confirmed a post mortem report that the killer had placed a cucumber and a brinjal in the girl’s private parts.

On September 22,

KUALA LUMPUR: Jazimin Abdul Jalil had twice denied his daughter at the mortuary. He had yearned for Nurin Jazlin to come home alive.
“How can I wish for my daughter to be dead? When I went to identify her twice, there was no DNA result given to me.
“My heart would not allow me to accept the girl lying there, battered to death, as my Nurin – not without proof,” said Jazimin at his sparse two-bedroom flat in Wangsa Maju yesterday evening after Nurin was laid to rest at the Taman Ibu Kota Muslim cemetery.
But in the face of overwhelming media reports that police had released the DNA result, Jazimin and several family members including eldest brother Jasni sought confirmation from the police about 10pm on Thursday.
At the Petaling Jaya district headquarter, the officers told Jazimin that the DNA test was 99.99% conclusive and the dental record that police obtained from Nurin’s school gave a convincing 95% match.
Even then, Jazimin called for a second DNA test.
Jasni who accompanied him to the police HQ related that Jazimin was silent during the drive home after midnight.
When they reached home, Jazimin who had always seemed strong throughout the period that his eight-year-old daughter had been missing, finally crumbled.

On the 22nd of September, the girl who was brutally murdered and stuffed inside a sports bag is indentified as missing eight-year-old Nurin Jazlin Jazimin. The country is shocked and also angered with what happened.

The killer is really SICK! What the hell is wrong with the society nowadays?!?! What does killing someone brings you? Satisfaction?!? Pride?!? For god sake's, she is just a 8 year old girl. Why do such heartless people even exist! Damn these people!!! Anyone with any information, PLEASE, do your part as a good citizen and inform the police. Things like these can't happen anymore! The SICK RETARDED BEAST must be caught!!

As a reminder.Parents, please be very careful about your children. please take good care of them. Especially the girls, please dont go out by yourself too often, if possible, try not to. The society is no longer as safe as it is. There are a whole lot of sickos out there. Please be very careful everyone.

Poetry Poetry

2007-09-22T12:13:00.000+08:00

Another day is passing
And still there is no word
On how your life is going
And who is in your world

I hope you will consider
These words I write to you
I liked you in my life
Yet maybe now it's through

I don't want to see
our relationship come to an end
And I don't want to find
our lives standing still

We are moving towards the end
And we really ought to wait
Because God planted something special
Deep within our hearts

I know your life is hectic
You are busy all day through
My life is busy also
But I still think of you

I want to send my love
And remind you of these things
Just so you will know
You mean so much to me

dedicated to Ms.D, the only girl i liked all this while and always..

Good Game.

2007-09-19T13:54:00.000+08:00

There was a 3 on 3 Basketball Competition which started on Monday.

Sherwynd, me, Zhemin and Dinesh were representatives for our class.
Although we lost the first 2 games, we managed to win our last game yesterday.

Though is was tiring, it was really fun playing with you guys.

Also thanks to Ms. Janice, Joanne, Fu Yao, Bee Yen and the rest for your support!

p/s: thanks deph for your encouragement too ^^.

A Day Of Enjoyment!

2007-09-14T20:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a wonderful day.

We all had a BBQ party at Austin Heights. It was fun.

I went to CS at 11.15am and met up with Dinesh and Sherwynd. We then later went to Plentong Giant where we met up with the rest of the gang at 12pm.

We went and shop for our needs. We had so much fun while shopping.
After that, we went to this Nyonya restaurant called June's Kicthen at Permas Jaya for our lunch.
My goodness! Their Tom Yum is superb!! It's really delicious. I need to taste in again next time. We took a few photos there, but i dont have the pics because its all in Wei Hsien's cam. He's our photographer.

After lunch, all of us split up and went and get the remaining of the things that we needed.I went with Sherwynd and Joanne to get the ice, charcoal, firestarter and metal mesh. We got a call from the rest telling us to get another ice box. We went to sooooo many shops just to look for a polystyrene ice box. But in the end, none of them sold one, not even Jusco!

We later went to Austin Heights and set our things at the BBQ pit.After that, we went and played basket ball. Sherwynd, me, Dinesh and Xavier had a friendly match with the people there. Gosh, it was so tiring! but it was fun.haha, At arnd 7pm, we started our BBQ. We had chicken wings, sausages and corns. Thanks Dinesh, the chicken wings were awesome, and thanks to Zhemin also, for helping us grill most of the chicken wings. The park there is really nice. Its so relaxing. After the meal, we played a game, where we will draw lots to choose our partner and come up with a dance according to the song.

Some of us manage to dance but some didnt. We then later watched Joanne perform her ballet dance. She really can dance lor! So graceful somemore. *claps* . After that, we cleared things up and head back home. First we escort Xavier then Joanne back. There were so many road blocks on the way back. The police officer stopped us because we wrapped the BBQ skewers with paper and he thought it was something else. After we showed him what it was, he let us through.After that, Dinesh sent me back and later Sherwynd. I m glad that everyone made it back safety after the BBQ.

p/s: I would like to thank Zhemin, Fu Yao, Sherwynd, Bee Yen, Dinesh, Fu Yao, Li Wee, Xavier, Wei Hsien and Joanne for the wonderfull time we had together. Am looking forward to gather with you guys again!

What An Unusual Day.

2007-09-11T18:57:00.000+08:00

Today was an unusually funny and weird day.

All of us wore formal attire to college. The funny thing was all of the lecturers kept on asking us " Why all of you wear so smart?? You all have some function on later??" Lol. Ms. How said that all of us were like managers of some company. But Zhe Min really looked like a businessman. He's our future businessman. lol. So many people were staring at us because only our class were wearing entirely formal.

Then during the break, we went out and have lunch with Ms Janice. We went to this kinda like "nasi campur" shop. Its a chinese shop lar. Then after taking our food, Sherwynd and me went to the counter to pay, then the lady ask us " Lao ban, yao he se me?(Boss, want to drink what?)" Omg, all of us were laughing like mad. It has to be the formal attire i tell you.

Too bad we didnt bring camera, but we still manage to snap some photos with Joanne's phone.

The Bio class with Ms .Tan

Joanne, Me and Bee Yen

Ms Janice and Me.

Bee Yen, Ms Janice and Joanne.

I guess that's all about today folks. =)

Shhh~ Its a Secret!

2007-09-07T19:44:00.000+08:00

Today, I went to Tebrau City with Joanne, Sherwynd and Bee Yen (Da jie). Finally we all had a chance to bring Da jie around JB, because she always didnt have the time, and she need to go back to Kluang every week.

Well, our main intention of going out is to watch a movie entitled "Secret" because our Da jie wanted to watch that movie.

After meeting up, we went to and bought the 12.30 pm show and went and watch the movie.

The movie was crap. Like got no head no tail. Awhile the girl die la, then suddenly alive again, then Jay Chou can go back in time and be with that girl la. So messy and boring. Only a few part is funny.

Then during the movie, I was sms-ing Dephanie(the very very sweet and caring girl =X) most of the time. Thanks Deph! If it wasnt for you, I think I would have been bored to death. Hee =).

After the movie, we went to Secret Recipe and had our lunch there. Then we went and walk around for a while. I went and ate Baskin Robins. Yum!!

Then we went and do a little window shopping. We went to Harris and I met Jessica there.( Why i always meet Jess in TC ah? lol). Then we went back at 4.45pm because Joanne had to teach piano class at 6.

Overall, it was quite fun. Cant wait till this coming Thursday. Its BBQ time!! Food again! YUM!! haha.

Everything today also like got Secret. Movie called Secret, go and eat at Secret Recipe, what else? lol

And Thanks Deph for making my day better =*. hee.

Lacking Of Inspiration

2007-09-01T13:54:00.000+08:00

Crap

Haven been blogging for the past few weeks.

Just cant seem to find any inspiration/event/incident to blog on.

To make things worst, I m going to be sick. Ahh, what great timing.

Biology Topic Test on Monday, then practical on Wednesday

Busy,busy.

Back to facing the books.

Wait till my inspiration comes back. hehe

And oh yeah, Happy Birthday Malaysia!!

Of Joy~ and everything nice?

2007-08-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

The list of National Service trainees for the year 2008 have been out for the past few week.

And its only today that i actually managed to check whether m i one of the "selected" ones.

And guess what?. I was not selected. Woot!

But at times, i really wonder what things would be if i was selected.

Hmm, then again, i kinda feel sorry for those who got selected.

Especially when they use this phrase "Taniah, Anda telah DiPilih......"

They make it as if it really special, as though you won a million bucks.

P/S: To those who are selected, Please take care of yourselves while you're attending it. =)

Cheers people.

To Teddy. You really got nothing better to do. LOL.

2007-08-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

Just to reply what Mr. Teddy wanted

Want to know 10 weirdest or little known things about me? Well here they are:

1. For those of you who dont know, I m a PTS student. For those of you who knows, too bad

2. I m an ice-cream monster. Mcflurry can be gone in less than 5 mins

3. I eat alot but i m still small sized?

4. I dyed my hair before.

5. I've been rejected 4 times.

6. I dont judge myself

7. I have a 012(Maxis) line

8. I like to help people

9. I m currently 16 years old and 9 months

10. I used to play the violin before.

There you go folks, short and simple. And I dont wish to TAG anyone.
Game Over.
Thank you and have a Nice Day.

For Pandaria! Teddy!! o_O

2007-08-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

Okay, I went to college today just to meet up with Mrs. Parvathi for the LDDSS society meeting

Went there quite early because I followed Ms Janice to college. Oh well, a few moments later, Sherwynd came.

Then..., We went to SSD to practice that High School Musical song. Ahh, its was quite fun lar, singing like a mad fella there. hehe. Then came along Xavier, and Joanne later on. Then, the four of us start to sang our hearts out in the "SA" room.

Here is the part some of us got pissed off with:

We were recording our singing when this person came in and wanted to said something, but we told that person to be quiet as we are recording. Then he went out. But he came back with someone more superior and that other person came and told us off, saying that "oh that room is only for "SA" but i let you all use it because you all need to sing for the Annual Ball and bla etc etc..."

And the part that pisses me off the most is this:

That person said " If you all want to sing or do activities for other purposes, please go and find another room, I wont allow you to use this room"

Please lor, You think that room is very grand? Well, tell you what. Its just a room made of glass panels and filled with chairs.

Okay enough about that.Makes me feel so pissed when i think about it.

At around 1pm, Mr Howard came. Then we had this meeting (which was suppose to start at 12.45pm) with Mrs Parvathi and it ended quite fast. Everyone's stomach was already growling by then =p. Then we headed to TC and had our lunch there.

When we reach TC, Major headache choosing for a place to eat. One will say "Anything la", then its goes, "whatever, apa-apa, shui bian, cincai". and everything came out. After much selecting, our Princess Joanne decided to go to Food & Tea and have our lunch. Had lots of photo taking there while eating. Here are some of the pics,

Our Princess Joanne having her Fried Rice

Mr.Howard trying to act cute. LOL! >.<

The Blue blue thing~~ o_O

Well, after the meal, everyone went back. We had so much fun, but some certain event, which we can do without, made our days dull for that moment.

p/s: Teddy, there is your blue blue thing! =p

Emotions.

2007-07-31T18:58:00.000+08:00

Today is a sad day for all the students under Mr. Teddy.

Yes. Today is Mr.Teddy's last day at SJB.

Although we have just been with him for 3 weeks, its really sad to know that a good lecturer is leaving because of some undisclosed reasons.

He has guided us throughout our Chemistry lab.

He's like a friend more than a lecturer to me.

We took a few pictures. for rememberance.

On behalf of all the A-Levels July Intake, I would like to convey our thanks to Mr. Teddy for everything!

Hope everything will be smooth on your journey. All the best!!

Here's some "artistic" words:

People come, people go;
Leaving a trace some would not,
But you know you left a mark,
In our hearts it'll always be.
Emotions keep and not released
To our friend, our lecturer Mr. Teddy,
Be happy always and god speed.

On behalf of the July 07 A-Levels Class.

p/s: remember to come on friday! We'll will be waiting for your presence. hehe.

Rhythms and Sounds.

2007-07-27T22:44:00.000+08:00

The title says it all.

Today, I went to college to practice a few songs for Induction Day, which will be held on the 3rd week of August.
Its was kinda fun, but tiring at the same time.

We also had Literary, Drama, Debating and Scrabble Society (LDDSS) meeting at around 1.45pm.
Then, i went back to SSD to practice the songs again.. Keep playing until my fingers also pain. crap.

These are some of the few songs i'll be playing:

1. Start Of Something New
2. A Moment Like This
3. In Love Again

Well, i may not be a good or talented guitarist.
But still, Mr. Teddy says i m cool okay. hehe.

The weather was so freaking cold today, rain rain rain.Geez

Bad Day.

2007-07-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

Today freaking bad luck wei.

Break was at 12.45pm and Physics class was at 1.30pm but i didnt take that subject. We had a long break until 3.30pm. So, we decided to go to Tebrau City and have our lunch. Myself, Joanne, Sherwynd, Li Wee and Eric went to TC by Joanne's car.

Well, after arriving there, we walk around a little bit before we had our lunch at Secret Recipe (it was Joanne's idea!). Oh well, everyone agreed so we went there and have our lunch.I ordered Chocolate Indulgence, Joanne ordered Spagatti Set, Sherwynd ordered BBQ Rice Set, Li Wee ordered Coke, and Eric Iced Lemon Tea. We then later walked around a little after that and met Jessica there. Everything was fine UNTIL we decided to go back at 3.00pm

We got onto Joanne's car, waited for her to start the car and this was what happen. The ignition couldnt work. All of us was like "Shit!". The car was totally okay on the way there and the opposite when we wanted to go back. We checked the engine and everything else but it was all ok. Joanne then called her mother and asked her mom to get things done while we took a cab back to college.

And to make things worst, the bladdy taxi driver ripped us off wei! 12 freaking bucks from TC to college (its 12 because we wanted to take the taxi with 5 ppl.If not it was 8 bucks.). WTH?!? SO near and yet they charge so high.First, the car broke down, and now kena ripped off! Well, we got no choice because we're all late for class already. So we got onto the cab and went back to college.

After that, everything else was kinda okay i guess. Oh and today is Bee Yen's and Yean Ruey's birthdays. Happy Birthday ppl!

Define. It.

2007-07-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

Well, the first week of college feels kinda good.

Got to know my class people better.
Dropped Physics and Added Biology.
Weird timetable.(Class from Mon-Thurs only)
Made a few more new friends.
Crappy bus service.
Lack of food stalls in the cafeteria.
Secondary school students came for school trips and looked as us as if we are some specimens.

What else happened? Nothing else i guess.

Except the feeling of boredom once you have nothing else to do.Yikes!

Aku Budak Sunway.

2007-07-05T19:31:00.000+08:00

Aku budak Sunway College JB beb! hehe

Haha. Finally, college starts for me after more than 7 months of laying my ass at home.Well today is their Orientation Day. Overall everything is okay, the cafeteria food was so-so. I saw Jessica while i was having my briefing about A-Levels. Made some new friends. And the WORST THING IS.........

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my class only got 2 girls wei!!! 2!! WTF!!!.Where have all the ladies went to?!?! Omg die la. I m sure all the other guys in my class are also thinking the same thing. Die la this time.How to go hunting wei.. *sigh*

Please Sign This Petition!

2007-06-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

Dear all readers, due to the recent increase of crime rate in Johor Bahru, The Tiong Hua Association of Johor Bahru has launch a campaign and is trying to get the attention of the authorities to reduce the crime rate. And to do that, they need the public to sign this petition.They need as many signatures as possible. Please do your part to help the community. Here is the link

Sign online petition
http://www.jbtalks.cc/petition/

Download petition form
http://www.jb-tionghua.org.my/qianshu.doc

Thanks to everyone who did their part. Please ask your family members to sign it too.

Looking Back..

2007-06-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

Its just a random post about my thoughts.

I've been thinking alot lately.Its already middle of the year. And I have a feeling that I haven't done anything significant or something that is actually worth to be written in the pages about my past. People always tend to look back at their past and think whether they have actually made the right choice, especially if its something that is really important to them. I always look back and think about my past, thinking that am I really happy or satisfied with what I've done?.Have I made the correct choice?. Of course everyone has their own regrets in life, and i have one too. The biggest one that keeps linking to a series of events and in the end, its all over. Its like deja vu. Its the kind where you let the chance slip once and it seems that there's another chance for you to go at it. And putting high hopes, this so called "2nd chance" fails in the end.In addition, its worst than what you think. And this is the situation that I've been through in the last 2 months.Its really sad. Thats when I finally realize that chances only comes once. Once its gone, its gone. There wont be another try. We should take the opportunity to seize it when we still can. Or else, it will be written as regret in the pages of our past.

Well, college is due on the 2nd of July. I hope it will start soon cause I m starting to get bored..

Tribute.

2007-06-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

PENANG: Loganathan Arumugam of the Alleycats, or Loga as he was fondly called, has died from lung cancer.

The singer-flutist died at Mount Miriam Hospital here at 10.50am yesterday. He was 54.

Loga: Always believed he would beat the disease

His wife Susan Lovie, 51, said her husband was a fighter to the end.

“He always believed he would beat the disease and was very excited about recording a full orchestral album and a Tamil album with the band once he recovered.

“Loga was sure he would be back on stage by October, and had even planned to go on a cruise with me,” she said.

She said Loga had been suffering from a bad cough for about a year, but was diagnosed with lung cancer only eight months ago.

“We went to so many doctors and none of them could tell us what was wrong until he was sent for a CT scan. By then, the cancer was already in the third stage.

“He never felt sorry for himself – he just said, 'now that we know, let's deal with it'.

“Before he closed his eyes for the last time, he smiled and told me to be strong,” she said.

“I know he would want his fans to keep on supporting the Alleycats. He was with the band for more than three decades – even longer than our marriage.

“As long as you keep listening to his music, Loga will continue to live on,” she said.

Loga was admitted to the hospital on Saturday.

He leaves behind a son, L. Vigneswaran, 24, and daughter, L. Priyadashini, 19.

Taken from The Star.

A band member of the famous Alleycats who are known for their afro hairdo died from lung cancer. Its really sad to know that a local band that makes good music is fading away. I think the music industry in the country wouldnt have been at the state it is now if it wasnt for them. My respects...

FUBAR. Seriously

2007-06-05T17:18:00.000+08:00

SHAH ALAM: Why? – that is the question on everyone's mind after the entire prosecution team for the Altantuya Shaariibuu murder trial was suddenly replaced yesterday.

The latest development completed a “circle of change” as the prosecution and defence teams, as well as the presiding judge, have been changed at least once.

The latest change also resulted in a two-week postponement of the case.

The new lead prosecutor, Tun Abd Majid Tun Hamzah, said he did not know why he was assigned to the case at the last minute. His superior, Attorney-General Tan Sri Abdul Gani Patail, could not be reached for comment.

There were other developments despite the short proceedings yesterday.

One of the accused said he had an alibi while a lawyer was found to be related to the presiding judge. Another lawyer claimed that he had discharged himself due to interference from third parties.

Altantuya's family also filed a RM100mil suit against the three accused and the Malaysian Government.

Taken From The Star.

What the hell is wrong with our government man! A sudden decision to change the prosecution team on the case. Its like you go to a doctor to seek treatment but in the end you end up meeting doctors from the entire department. Its like the judges are running away from this case. They are like " eh, i cant do this case. nah i give you do" and then the other guy will go " eh, i also cannot do this case la. you do la." and the cycle just goes on and on. When is the case going to be solved?If this goes on, the damn case will never be solved. Its really a shame to the panel of judges in our country and the High Court. FUBAR wei. Seriously.

Blogging Some Cash!

2007-05-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

Yep! Thats right. You can now use your blog to earn some pocket money. Here's some info on it

According to a March survey on advertising expenditure by media services group ZenithOptimedia, Internet ad spending (adspend) is predicted to grow at 28.2% this year, seven times more than the rest of the market at 3.7%.

Advertising agencies are expected to spend about US$445bil (RM1.56 trillion) this year and about US$495bil (RM1.73 trillion) in 2009.

In the same timeframe, Internet adspend would grow from 7% to 8.7%, while newspaper adspend will drop from 28.3% to 27%, the report said.

NEW VENTURE: Tiah (right) and Cheo, founders of Nuffnang, a local company that puts up advertisements on homegrown blogs.

With more people turning to the Internet for all sorts of information, news and services, it is no big surprise that advertisers are also eyeing the online space.

Typically, businesses place ads on professionally-developed content websites with high traffic, such as news portals.

Nowadays, advertisers are also keen to tap into a previously unexplored domain of self-published content sites – blogs.

Though blogs may attract a lot less web traffic than an online news portal but as long as there are viewers for blogs, it becomes a valid medium for advertising.

For bloggers, putting up ads on their blogs would seem like a nifty way to earn some pocket money through user-created content.

A new way to advertise

Timothy Tiah Ewe Tiam, 24, is one of the bloggers who thought he could earn some money through blogging during his varsity years in Britain.

When he and a friend ran a humour-themed blog several years ago, it became quite popular, and they used the advertising system AdSense by Google.

"Our earnings were low and Google made you wait till your account generated US$100 (RM350) before you could start cashing out. We waited forever to get anything out of it," Tiah said.

"So much for wanting to make a fortune from online advertisements," he mused.

When Tiah graduated, he teamed up with Cheo Ming Shen, to set up Nuffnang Sdn Bhd (www.nuffnang.com.my) – a blog-advertising community, the first of its kind in Malaysia.

If you're wondering why it's called Nuffnang; the name comes from a quirky combination of two slang words (spoken in inner city London) meaning "real good" or "real cool", according to Tiah.

Basically, Nuffnang enables local businesses to put up advertisements on homegrown blogs, and for bloggers to make some money off ads from their self-published sites.

"We saw that there was no system here that enables local companies to reach out to the blogging community – advertising on traditional media is very costly and the cheaper method of passing flyers is not effective," said Tiah.

Another advantage of blog-advertising is that it has a more specific audience which advertisers can target for more effective promotions of products, said Josh Lim, director of Josh Lim and Associates.

THE COMPETITOR: Lim (second from left) together with the Advertlets.com team. Wong (first from left) is the owner of the kinkybluefairy blog. Lim’s company deals with blog-advertising and is the direct competitor of Nuffnang.

A month after Nuffnang's opening in February this year, Lim's company set up a similar community called Advertlets (www.advertlets.com) – a play on the words advertising and alerts.

"There's no point paying a lot to put up an online banner ad on a major website when it is not relevant to half its visitors," Lim said.

"Knowing that each blog has its own demographic allows advertisers to put up more relevant ads," he said.

Both sites generally offer a similar type of service and features. Both systems also work almost the same way.

Being in direct competition with each other, these two agencies have been diligently improving their offerings to best each other – much to the benefit of our local blogosphere.

While talking to members of the local blogosphere, In.Tech also discovered that bloggers have their own favourites.

At press time, Nuffnang reports to have over 20 million ad impressions monthly (every time an ad loads on a blog) while Advertlets currently has close to three million.

Taken from "The Star In-Tech"

Great isnt it? Finally, bloggers around can make use of their blogs. So bloggers, get that ad up on your page!

Teen Stars

2007-05-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

I went to CS yesterday and there was an event there. So, i went and take a look and guess what i found out,
DiGi was having their DiGi Celebriteens Southern Region finals in CS. And whats more, I found out Yean Ruey joined the contest again.Well usual stuff. Whenever there's an event in CS, there are sure a whole lot of ppl. Well i managed to snap a few photos despite the number of ppl there(kinda hard though). And the pics are kinda blurr, so i wont post it. Well, some Malay guy named Azizi won the regional finals, and Yean Ruey didnt.Feel sad for the poor guy. But anyway he did his best and there's always another chance, so dont give up! Then after that i went to Roibo and get a Chocolate Freeze and nothing else really happened after that. So I went home and sleep.

*snorts*

Back.

2007-05-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

Well I am back after 1 week of work. I've stop working due to some family problems. Form 6 has started and hell no I am not going to form 6. I m gonna die there. STPM is so bladdy hard i think i'd probably be dead even before the exam starts. Well maybe i should start thinking of what to do for 1 and a half months while waiting for A-Levels. Well, nothing much to talk about i guess, so maybe i'll post something in a day or two.

Uh-oh.

2007-05-10T12:33:00.000+08:00

I hereby declare that i wont be blogging for some time due to lack of free time and creativity. I m busy working at the moment, my brain is pretty messed up and I m still waiting for the freaking A-Levels at Sunway JB to start in July. Until then, hiatus!

Just another post..

2007-05-01T09:41:00.000+08:00

Well, today is the premier of the movie above. Spider-Man 3. I m sure that most of the cinemas nationwide are all fully booked or packed. Oh well, at least everyone has something to do, rather than sitting at home like me doing nothing, just staring at the monitor. And today is Labour Day too. Happy Labour Day to everyone..

So close yet so far..

2007-04-26T15:09:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, there's just that one moment you will feel it, you have done something and was so close to achieving it, but it's actually further than we thought it was. Well, i used to think that maybe that was just how things were. Thats what i m feeling at the moment... Maybe thats just how things are meant to be.. So i'll just have to keep on trying and waiting for it.... even if it means forever....

Words...

2007-04-21T20:07:00.000+08:00

Another day, another night,
Another dream of wistful flight.

Another wish, another thought,
Another happy ending sought.

Another heart, another mind,
Another love of hope's design.

Another soul, another fear,
Another terse of heart broken.

Another day, another night,
Another tear to fall tonight..

Tears had been shed, hearts broken. But you know I'll keep on waiting..

Killing Spree!

2007-04-19T19:12:00.000+08:00

Sometime after he killed two people in a Virginia university dormitory but before he slaughtered 30 more in a classroom building, Cho Seung-Hui mailed NBC News a large package including photographs and videos Monday morning, boasting, “When the time came, I did it. I had to.”

Cho, 23, a senior English major at Virginia Polytechnic Institute and State University in Blacksburg, killed 32 people in two attacks before taking his own life.

This guy is one crazy fella wei, thankfully we dont have (yet) any of there crazy asses in our country.Then again, i feel sorry for all those people that were killed by this madman. My respects to those who are killed..

Note: come to think of it, this fella look like Sin wei! heh.